A new email:
"I want to write to you... about myself. I am gamer, plainly put. As a kid, I would play my weekends away, or after homework on weekdays. The days were carefree, others, and myself, viewed my gaming as a hobby for any child, like playing with toys. I am near graduating high school now, and I now realize what I have done to myself... I've played my middle school and high school years away.
The more my childhood passed, the more I devoted free time to play online games. The games became a growing addiction, an electronic plague. First it was Starcraft, then Warcraft 3, now WoW. I currently play 14 hours on weekends, 8 hours on Fridays, and 3 hours Mon-Thurs (school nights), and I have enough homework from AP classes to lose a lot of sleep, especially if I played. I study the minimum I need to get a good grade, then I hit the games and play until my body strains, pleading for me to sleep. If on any given day I have no homework, I play all day. Believe me, I am an exceptional student, averaging above a 4.0. The tradegy is... I could have contributed more; I probably could have advanced straight to graduate school now if I had pushed with a 100% effort, and only I know that I had the capabilities to push way harder. I even threw away opportunities to participate in extracurriculars and sports. If my parents know my potential like I do, they would be furious, because I cheated myself.
Academics aside, I sacrificed a lot of friendships that I could have had to play by myself on weekends. I have even ignored the intentions of many girls who I could have had a decent relationship with. I left them waiting in the dust, left them as just friends. I want to cry just writing this; I wasted my life. A friend (girl) once called me a good guy, but wasted. I was young and stupid, and I ignored her. I swear, I hate the notion of gaming now. I am not unlike the poor souls who are addicted to drugs. Gaming is my weed. My life passed so fast that I don't anyone to cling onto anymore, only the games are there for me. Thus, I feel inclined to play more. My behavior is so compulsive that I play even with the knowledge of my own deterioration. I should quit playing now and remake friends fast, or else my sadness and emptiness will consume me."