"I play a game called city of heroes. Untill recently I haven't been a 'gamer'. I bought coh at the end of December. My playing has gotten out of control. My behavior is unlike me. My friends have stopped calling. I haven't seen them in months. I live alone so my new behavior has progressed without anyone protesting. I don't have a roommate or wife to drag me away. I sleep, work, and play. There isn't time for anything else. I feel horrible. I am at work now and I feel like I just want to crawl into a cave. When I play I feel OK. When I don't play I am a mess. I feel silly talking about this. I have always been a social person untill recently. I want to find a way to modderate my playing. I keep saying that I will but then I put it off. Tomorrow I will modderate, today I am going to play. I just want one more level. etc. I don't know what to do. If you have any words of wisdom or if you have been where I am drop me a line."
1 Comments:
I have been in a similar place. I definitely played CoX to the point of obsession. I alienated my friends and family.. my kids. I also tried to justify today's raid with promises to curb the amount of time I spent with my SG.
I replaced the relationships I had with people that were around me with people that I met in game.
Long story... short version. Perhaps I'll write my own entry for this blog. But I've left the game but find it hard to let go of the 'relationships' I've built inside. It's still something that I struggle with but I try to remember the cost of playing the game. Not that its everyone's but it is definitly mine. I am in a marriage dangerously close to divorce because of the distance I allowed to build between us. The tension remains although I have quit.
Just know that you're not alone in how you feel. I know that it can be scary to put yourself out there to people that you have alienated but you should try. Reach out to those still in your life and get OUT and do something with them.
Good luck, and stay positive.
O
Apr 26, 2007, 7:38:00 PM
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